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    2007년 6월

    kill you

    不知道为什么自己最近老在乱想
    不知道为什么最近那么多愁善感
    更不知道为什么会有那么多为什么
    以前别人给我的绰号就是十万个为什么
    难道现在真的应验了
    现在真的好担心自己的前途
    鄙视一切是不是就是对自己的不满意
    是不是到最后就是对自己的鄙视
    好像我想写日志的时候都是心情不爽的时候
    是不是每个人都是心情不好的时候会动笔写点东西
    为什么现在我对女人会没感觉
    为什么会有人说我是homo
    为什么我现在是单身
    为什么我已经没有那种悸动的感觉了呢
    为什么我现在一无所获
    为什么我现在已经22了
     
    这学期回来之后烟抽的也凶了
    牙齿都抽黑掉了
    但是我还是停不了对烟的依赖
    烟真的是种好东西
    不需要谁的特意的理会
    只要烟还理我
    大三的生活是折磨人的
    好多选择一下子跳到你的面前
    猝不及防
    无所谓了走一步算一步吧
    边走边想不就是我的处事哲学么
    是金子到哪都会发光的
    每次都是用这句话来聊以自慰
    无奈
    有谁了我的无奈
    手表丢了
    爱情太jb遥远了
    六级还jb没过
    还jb要准备简历
    还jb要准备考研
    还jb想着要不要出国
    还jb想娶个外国妞
    还jb想生个混血的
    还jb真快成反人类了
     
     
     
     
     
    2007년 5월

    思考点什么

    人生的问题\
    就像那杯咖啡\有点苦\有点涩\
    但是喝多了也就离不开\
    你不能选择逃避\
    22的我没有太大的野心\爽直的性格不加掩饰\
    They try to tell me we're too young,
    Too young to really be in love
    They say that love's a word,
    A word we've only heard
    But can't begin to know the meaning of

    And yet i'm not too young to know
    This love will last though years may go
    And then someday, they may recall
    i am not too young at all
     
    2007년 4월

    有感而写

    你善良的对待他,他却当你是傻比
    所以我选择沉默,我不说不代表我虚伪
    所以我明白了男人的爱都是那么的内敛
    不要让人家一眼就看穿你在想什么
    所以我选择沉默,在还没足够睿智之前
    所以我明白了人活着其实是一种煎熬
    不要憎恨你的foe,因为这样会使你失去冷静的判断
    我想说但是说不出来,不是不明白只是做出来比说出来更有说服力
    要学会控制自己的情绪,要学会做个聆听者
    要冷静\要执着\要博爱
    要学会不要为自己的失败找借口
    如果你找了那就说明你还不成熟
    男人也要学着像女人那样矜持,因为你没资格不这样做,其实男人比女人更贱
    要有卧薪尝胆的忍耐力,因为你知道你自己到底有几斤几两
    要坚强,就算装也要装得像,因为这个世界每人会可怜你
    每个人其实都是希望看见你的脆弱,看见你的无能这样他们也能活得潇洒
    冷酷的世界,冷酷的表情,只有你自己能拯救自己
     
    2007년 2월

    随笔

    you say
    Time goes
     No 
    time stays
      we go
        everyone must follow the nature's law
         nobody could beak it
    2007년 1월

    incest-

    hey you,are you all reday?
    this is a story about incest,motherfucker.
    this inspiration comes from a movie named mother,an italy style.
      you and I all hated daddy because of his lacking of sexual urge  
    mum,you are full of desire.you just wanna be fucked and fucking all the time
    things are going as you wish,daddy died in the jet crash.
    then you  bring me to the downtown and have sexual fun
    do you know how I love you,mum,I'm all about you
    I just ju...... can't get you out of my heart
    you're tired of me,you just wanna go faraway to seek strang some
    have fun with srangeers you deserved me
    you just leave me alone in the villa
    and 
    you pay a bitch for taking care of me,for serving me,for satisfying my desire
    day by day
    frome dawn to dark
    I can't fuck anybody else except you
    I can't get satisfied from fucking her,even if
    lying down in the desert,missing you,swearing to the god
    please don't leave me,please back to me
    I don't know what's going on
    you just tell me you can't sustain this state
    I need you back
    but I hate you,I hate you,I swear to god I hate you,I love you
    mum would you shake ass for me just like before?
    2007년 1월

    guilty man

    It's been half past two years
    A memory from my past
    I know I did you so wrong
    I wish to change,to make it last
    Do you remember that I swear to you:I won't smoke
    Do you remember that I swear to you:I won't get drunk
    Do you remember that I swear to you:I won't let you go even if I betrayed you
    All that I remember,but you walk away
    I know it hurts,even I have felt the pain
    So should it matter what i do and what i have done
    as long as in my heart
    you are still the only one
    I hear you hear it
    but I don't think you understand
    Now i'm a guilty man
    I can not be trusted by love
    I been ruined
    Now i'm willing to enjoy "one night stand"
    I'm a guilty man whatever I do i'm a guilty man
     
    2006년 12월

    my prayer

     Dear GOD,
                    I know that she's out there...the one I'm suppose to share my whole life with. 
                And in time...you'll show her to me.
                      Will you take care of her, comfort her, and protect her...until that day we meet. 
               And let her know...my heart...is beating with hers. 
    In a dream I hold you close
    Embracing you with my hands
    You gazed at me with eyes full of love
    And made me understand
    That I was meant to share it with you
    My heart my mind my soul
    Then I open my eyes
    And all I see reality shows I'm alone
    But I know someday that you'll be by my side
    Cause I know God's just waiting till the time is right
    God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
    When the day's cold will you keep her warm
    When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
    God will you let her know that I love her so
    When theres no one there that she's not alone
    Just close her eyes and let her know
    My heart is beating with hers
    So I prayed until that day (prayed until that day)
    When our hearts will beat as one (when our hearts hearts will beat as one)
    I will wait so patiently (patiently)
    For that day to come (for that day to come)
    I know someday that you'll be by my side
    Cause I know God's just waiting till the time is right
    God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
    When the day's cold will you keep her warm
    When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way (shine he the way)
    God will you let her know that I love her so
    When theres no one there that she's not alone
    Just close her eyes and let her know
    My heart is beating with hers
    Is beating with hers (ooo)
    My heart is beating with hers (oooo)
    It's beating with hers
    God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
    When the day's cold will you keep her warm
    When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
    God will you let her know that I love her so
    When there's no one there that she's not alone
    Just close her eyes and let her know
    My heart is beating with hers
    Oh~~~ it's beating with hers
    (It's beating with yours)
    2006년 8월

    Pretty walking by

     Alarm clock is ringing
    I'm roused suddenly frome sleep
    Open my eyes
    The same ceiling,the same curtain,the same circumstances
    I'm getting up listlessly
    Go to the bathe room straightly
    Looking myself in the mirror,as if someone else talking to me
    when is the end of this senseless life
    I don't know how to answer him,so I'm keeping peaceful
    Then he repeated it ,the same question
    I open my mouth:may be today or may be tomorrow ,it's uncercain
    We're all keeping quiet
     
    After washing me up
    I step down the stairs,think having breakfast outside
    Unexpectedly
    A pretty walking by
    Oh my god,such a pretty one,unbelievable
    She looks so simple in her own way
    I fix my eyes on her for a long time,I can't move away my sight
    But she didn't notice me,even she hadn't realized someone walking by
    her brown hair hanging down on her tender shoulder,naturally down
    Her slim figure ,sexy decorated
    every position is all right
    She is just right,she is the style,my first-rate
    But you know she is just the walking-by
    Never be your girl
     
    Till the curtain of the night falling
    The vague impression lingering around me
    Now close to me now far away from me
    She is moving swiftly in my mind
    Enough,all all all,enough
    She is just decorating my dim life
    She is adding hue into my life
     
    PS:do you believe one man can be in love two times throughout his life
    do you trust that you just merely love one all your life
     
    everyone is the other's scenery,you're decking out their lives
    In a world so uncertain  
     
     
     
     
    2006년 8월

    The sense percepertion of gray

    lonesome,I'm sitting down alone
    listening to the music named insatiable
    I'm hearing the striking of the clock
    Then I change my position
    lying in the dark room
    enjoying the dim light and feeling the loneliness
    the sense percepertion of gray is flooding
     
    The Marlboro Lights case,standing on his own way,as if sighing there
           The NOKIA cellphone ,sleeping without any reaction,no answer and no message                   
    As if none is caring about me
    NO passion No orientation No repercussion
    Just like a body withou soul
    And the night seems go by so slowly  
     
    Taking one marlboro and lighting it
    The smoke continuously floating in the air
    It's definitily GRAY,sad scenes and bad smell
    Why the night lies so still
    Why I'm alone here
     
    I have been alone for so long
    I can't bear this situation anymore
    anyone holds me tight,holds me tight
    Let me touch the hope for living on
     
    I need a girl to ride,I need a girl to make my wife
    I need a girl who is mine,I need a girl in my life
     
    The shade of gray can't wipe away
     
     
     
    2006년 8월

    NIGHT

     Experience
    In the city ,the day is too hot
    And you're hoping for relief
    BUT
     In the night ,it's the same,as hot as
     So you got no relief
       BUT  
    The strong desire is burning
     SO
    You are hanging out
    And searching for pleasure
    Unconsciously
    You're arriving in a filthy region
    ALL around are streetwalkers
    You light your cigareette
    Lower your head,look sideways
    You pick up one
      50 
    U.S.dollars
    Then you and her 're back room
    one room,one sofa
    Tow grown-ups 
    one man,one woman
    Be close as fish and water ,playing in the sofa as earth-shaking
    The length of the time,unspecified
    The detail of the process,unspeecified
    Having bath,dressing up,kissing goodbye
    Man,turning round his head and gazing at 
       woman,leaning on the door and looking back 
     THE END  
    PS:do they have psychological movement,unspecified
    when will they making love again,unspecified
    it'a all about physiological need
    No responsibility,No quarrel,No emotion
    but happiness
     
     
     
     
     
    2006년 8월

    A NOBODY

    Take a deep breathe  
       let's start      
     
    Think about your fuckin'life
      Think about your fuckin'life on the ground
        Think about your pain suffering around 
        Think about your pain then blast it out far and high
     
     
          Then you face up and wanna change your fuckin' life
     For no way you're gonna escape
     If you could see through my eyes
      You'll  know  that  I'm  fucked  up  inside
     But I'm still alive and firm
     
     
    anyone tells me
    Where is the true essence
      Where is the hope 
       When all my life   
          I left hanging from a rope 
          Need I lead this life till my death 
     
     
        Can I be saved
          Can I be cut loose  
          Now the pain pulls me under 
           Now the pain it breeds
     
           I'm a nobody  
      Let it be
    2006년 8월

    Angel On My Shoulder

          Is  there  any   place
    I'm searching for
    I'm  looking  for
         I  don't  wanna  see  you  crying,
      falling  out  of  the  light
     
        I wanna feel you now
         Like  the  August   rain
          Kissing summer goodbye
          I   don't   wanna   see   your  pain
           arousing  out  of  the  night 
     
    I'm with you,girl
    I'm with you,girl
      I  wanna  feel  you  now
     Like thousand knives
     Digging out of my heart
     Burning in the night
     
    Girl,I don't wanna lose you
    you're the angel
    the angel
    on
    my shoulder
    2006년 5월

    活着好累

    今天天气是一片阴沉.但是心情好象没以前那么沉重了.可能这几天一直都是比较顺的原因吧.有些人说他把我当兄弟看,但是其实呢.心里面有吗?????这种鸟事其实叫日久见人心.
    • 周三和别班的哥们一起出去喝酒.好多都是第一次喝酒,但是聊得相当开.彼此都经历了大一,好象更明白更懂事了.更去珍惜身边的一些人.我们边喝边聊.发现居然腔调那么一致.都有种相见狠晚的感觉.那天我们喝得不多,但是却是我进大学以来喝得最开心的一次.6个人两箱.酒精直接拉近我们彼此见的距离.喝完后,在我们的学生街上游游荡荡,看见是女的只要是还可以的上去搭讪要号码.这种事情怎么会在平时做出来.大学生活太无聊了,我们就是想找乐子,就是想让自己开心.真的上大学真的很难快乐.好象来华政真的是毁了我们.就这样我们一直在路上游啊荡啊,手里拿根烟,满嘴的酒话,上去向那些女的要号码.呵呵~~~~~~~~~~~~~~感觉好有意思啊.和那些哥们在一起远比和那些自称是我兄弟的人在一起开心多了,一点压力都没有,有的只是快乐.有的只是那种真真意义上的快乐.一点不装出来,表现的都是很本我的东西.好象这样下去.但是酒后人散了,醒了,面对的就有是原来的那样子了.
    • 最近一直都有去自习,因为我是个很好强的人,我不想落后别人,不想让别人看不起我的.所以我的自尊心一直支撑着我走到现在.大学两年了,其实很多事情都是在自己的不经意间丢失了,像上次奖学金要不是我的刑法挂了,班级12的名次肯定能拿到的.但是偏偏我挂了.可能上帝认为我还没准备好,还不是很成熟.所以给我一个教训.上帝真的是很公平的.他让每个人都清楚的知道一个人一定是收获跟付出是相当的.别指望别人,别想着靠别人.你有的只有你自己.其他都是虚的.上帝是公平的,在创造你的同时,他肯定也创造了一个和你相死守的那个人,她肯定在世界的某个角落,等着你.所以对于爱情我相信一定要耐得住寂寞````````要学会等待.不要让性凌驾于爱之上.
    •    不管其他人怎么看我,我始终是个认真的人,对得起所有人,我相信我自己做的事假如是真的伤害到对方那肯定是无心伤害.我对爱情是认真的.我喝酒我抽烟不代表我不是个好GUY!我抽烟,男人抽烟,女人始终不会明白,他们不懂男人背后的一种孤独.那是在品尝孤独,品尝人生的寂寞与无奈.
    2006년 5월

    转变

    上大学来,感觉自己真的变得很多.生活的没有激情,对未来的迷茫充盈着我的心灵.以前向往的大学生活在自己的经营中竟成了这副样子,好心酸啊.没有女朋友的时候会想去找一个,我知道这对我真的一点都不难,但是找了之后更加心烦意乱,好象对爱情这一块一点激情都没了.这难道是真的现在的我吗?!好难想象啊!这个学期去了趟南京,见了她~~~~感觉太亲切了啊.亲切的让我觉得我们从来没有分开过,亲切让我感到可以好自然的牵起她的小手,亲切的以为我还可以深深的亲吻下她的嘴唇.但是一切都已经不在了,一切只是自己的幻想.that's only illution!departure's only result~~~~走的时候,在火车站一直想着她一定会来火车站送我的.我一直这样告诉自己的.可是等来的是自己伤痛欲绝的结果----要不是我主动发她消息,她连可怜的送别的几句话都懒的3通过消息告诉我!这一刻我真的清醒了!过去的这些真的是回不来了!回来了也不是你想要的那样了~~~~~~
    上大学谈了两次恋爱,确切点说应该是一次,那一次我什么都放得下的去做了!弄得自己现在是满身伤痕,不感再碰那东西了.激情对于爱情来说是多么重要!而我现在却没了啊!
    不想回家,不是不想家,是我感觉回家太俗了,都多大的人了,还老想着家,一点出息都没.回家意味着更大的责任,感觉自己对不起自己的父母.花那么多钱.却没有任何成果,在大学虚度光阴.所以~~~想到家人自己一个人的时候就有种说不出的责任,太重了!压得我喘不过气来.
    I don't wanna be lonely 不求什么 只求快乐!今晚感觉到那么点的寂寞!